My Clock, Has Finally Started Ticking

Ever since I can remember I always said "I want three kids".  I would have two boys, one girl and we'd all live happily ever after.  Following that I've always said:  "...but not right now", and as I've gotten older, I've pushed that idea off further and further into the future.  I, unlike my friends, have not had the ticking baby time bomb ready to explode in my belly...

...until last night.

Last night I had a dream.  A beautiful dream that I was walking the streets of some unknown city, with a tiny little blue eyed baby girl walking happily next to me.  As we reached the corner, ready to the cross the street I looked down at her and smiled, telling her to grab my hand.  She looked up at me with baby blue eyes, grabbed my pinky finger, and together we skipped across the street.

And then she turned into a dog.  I'm not kidding.

But until then she was MINE.  My little baby girl that I have been wanting since my dolly days and for the first time in almost 26 years I woke up WISHING I had one of my very own.  For the first time in my entire life, I feel like I'm getting my maternal clock and thank GOD because I was beginning to think mine was broken!  I couldn't stop thinking about the dream all day and I even began contemplating what her name would end up being!

The unfortunate part about it all is that I'm nowhere near a point in my life where I'm ready, or able to have a baby, but it makes me even more excited for all of my friend's to start having THEIR babies and beginning THEIR families so that I can go play with theirs all I want.  Hopefully someday I'll have my little blue eyed blond baby girl (or some version there of).  Until then I'm enjoying the freedom of not having her around.

::Crickets::

Hellooo oooo oooo oooo oooo. Echooo echooo echo echoo oooo. Man it's quiet around here! Has it really been since January since I've had anything worthwhile to blog about?

I won't sit here and give you the rundown of the past three months because that would be boring...really...boring. But where you do you start when you've been away so long? Can a blogger really just abandon her space and then come back months later expecting to be welcomed with open arms and remembered just as she was when she left? I feel as though I need to re-introduce myself or something.

...since when did I feel the need to add drama to this blog?

In all seriousness, I'm sitting here in New Berlin, Wisconsin house/dog sitting for my Aunt and Uncle who are currently gallivanting with their three children in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. I hate them. (It's supposed to snow here by the way. G.R.E.A.T). Anyways, I'm sitting here at the computer checking my NCAA brackets (because I'm obsessed now), with Buster (their dog) on my lap and I thought to myself: I'm going to update my long lost blog. Because quite frankly, I have nothing else to do with my time. So here I am, sitting at their computer, in their big open empty house, with STILL nothing to write about.

God I'm boring.

I'm 8 for 8 in my bracket (go me!) and I did the picks MOSTLY by myself. Seriously! Ok, Kyle MAY have helped me a bit and Logan MAY have lent a few suggestions...and okay my little cousin JJ MAY have suggested the second championship team...but other than that, their 100% all my picks! And I'll deserve all $2000 when I win it =)

Actually while we're on that note, can we talk about the NCAA for a second? I am 25...ALMOST 26, and I swear to god I have NEVER heard of March Madness. I mean, I've heard the name, but I never participated or got it or cared really. It was usually just an excuse for me to go hang out at the bars with people. But this year suddenly, work starts a pool, I join because I'm a work lemming, and suddenly I'm sitting in front of the TV watching COLLEGE BASKETBALL of all things and screaming at the TV for my team to come out ahead! I must have stared at espn.com all afternoon just hitting refresh every 2 seconds so I could keep up to date on the happenings and I get such a kick out of watching my bracket light up green every time one of my teams advances even further. It's fantastic!!

So that's that. My first post back after a few month hiatus is about basketball. How do you feel about that?

OH! And oh my gosh I couldn't end this post without completely switching gears and showing everyone my new baby. His name is Stewart Weitzman....and I will love him forever =)